I am strangely elated but at the same time.. a little heartbroken.. It's sardonic being here.. having you way over there. It has come to the point where i want to cry and cry and cry and cry.. because of all things i want to be for you and knowing that i probably can't be unless you actually allow me to be.. and that hurts..

That.. over-whelming yearning to say those daunting three words..

Sigh..

If only, you know? I would in a heartbeat and encompass you in everything i can give and make you happy in any possible way..

Siti