Been wanting to post this up but never really got the chance..

Here we go..

Was reminiscing about a whole bunch of stuff the other day and what left the biggest impression were the people who I've come across over the past few years.

They flitted in and out of my thoughts like butterflies appearing out of no where, landing in front of you and disappeared with the wind and as I thought about it some more it occurred to me that these people played a vital role in my life in about every aspect imaginable.

Here's the gist: I have recently made amazing new friends over the past year after five years of living in the shadow of someone else and these gorgeous people have helped me make so many decisions I could never have fathomed had I never met them.

Fate is written in this huge book and each individual has this book and with the power of free-will we are presented with the opportunity to choose which path to take and this domino effect will take place and in some ways the rest of your life will start each and every time a domino falls.

See, i used to believe that we are presented with situations and whether we choose to entertain them is a matter of you and fate. Now, i believe that it is a matter of you, fate and the people you trust because, let's face it, two, three, four and so on heads are better than one and these people are there to help us open our eyes and see the bigger picture and only then will it be you and fate.

These people who I have allowed to step into my bubble have been the emotional support I've been missing and have chosen to ignore most probably because of my stubbornness (which i think will be the death of me one day), my naivety, my immaturity and such and such.

Anyway, after allowing them in they have acted as my emotional crutches who the Almighty has blessed me with and they were there, you know? Holding me up, picking me up and supported me til the universe is sure that i can stand on my own two feet, be it barely or just enough. (I say 'barely' and 'just enough' because i have come to realise that though these emotional crutches are there when i need them, i need to understand that they will not be there for me all the time thus the need to learn to stand on my own if i want to survive this thing we call 'life'.)

It was hard at first and adapting to being alone was a real struggle once I was weaned from this support but after surviving all the emotional trauma I made it, you know? And now the quote "what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger" rings true in my diary of fate, struggle, survival, hope and trust.

The funny bit is this: These people they come and go and it's sad really having to see them leave but i believe that this happens for a reason.

If you read this i'm assuming you were/are/have been thinking of a number of people who who've lost contact with or has touched you (no pun intended) in some ways that have affected you and your life and your perspective.

The universe is the greatest teacher and it teaches in so many ways be it the rock you throw in the water or the bird poo you find on your car.. it teaches us something be it significant or otherwise.

With friends, the universe teaches us how to accept, love, hurt, experience, forgive, forget, live, life, laugh, cry, think, learn, watch, see, realise, ponder and the list goes on and on and on and most importantly, most often than not, our friends (and strangers too) teach us how to grow up. They come with a purpose if you let them present their case and they leave for reasons we may never understand but the footprints they leave on the shores of our hearts, soul and mind are forever there and they mix with all the other footprints of those who have previously walked our beaches and we learn..

Once the universe realises you are grown up it takes away your crutches and encourages you to walk on your own for a little bit and when it sees that you are staggering it lets you fall, helps you up and gives you brand new crutches and the learning, healing, understanding, having to be patient process repeats itself and you become stronger only if you want to be strong again. If you don't want to pick yourself up, accept the challenge and fight the weakness it kinda sends you into this whirlpool of devastation, destruction and unimaginable damage. Never say no to a challenge otherwise you'll destroy yourself..

The greatest thing about this higher power is that it accepts you at your strongest and most importantly it accepts you at your weakest and the stubbornness you possess and loves you anyway with all its heart, mind, soul, patience and asks "Are you ready now? If you aren't we can do this another day." and if you aren't ready it'll say "Alright, let me know when you are and you can take back these crutches and we can start from the beginning."

I'm not sure if I'm making any sense.. Heh. But please, do leave comments on this.. would really like the feedback..

Much love,

Siti