Today.

A lot has happened over the past year.. And I'm guessing no one really ever comes to this blog cause it's been a while but, you know, if it makes me happy =).

I turned 23 just 10 days ago and I can honestly say I did not see this coming. Just 10 years ago I was still wearing training bra's and the only issue I had was getting my homework done on time and wondering how tall I would be.

(Note to 13-year-old Siti: You didn't grow as tall as you were hoping to be. Sucks to be you.) Heh.

It never dawned on me what it was like to be "grown up" but now that I'm here, typing from my office at 9.39pm, I can't help but wonder, "What would it be like 10 years from now?" and one can only assume because we never really know what the future holds and that in itself is already very daunting.

If I had it my way, I'd like to be content by the time I reach 33 (and add a few more inches to my height) and stop obsessing about how short I am. Seriously. Hahaha. I also hope to still have my sense of humour in tact because I crack myself up sometimes. Hahaha. I did it again!

Ok, ok. I'm no spaz. I just amuse easy. Really. Please.. Stay. Don't go yet! =(

The person who just clicked on the X button is losing out on a lot because I have so much more to share.

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Oh, you're still here?

I must be really tired. I'm having a conversation with myself currently and I don't think that's healthy. I guess it is, to an extent, because it means I know how to keep myself company.. Or it could mean I don't have many friends.

One day, I'd like to look back and say, "You know, you've done so much but you can always do more. You can sleep when you die," and I know that sounds morbid but it's the truth.

Life has so much to offer us and I think that we're wasting so much of what little time we have brooding of the mundane and obsessing about the "would've, could've, should've". Someone once told me that these three words are usually the worse to come by because it makes us realise that we had failed in something that obviously meant a lot to us.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that we ought to move past those three and focus on what's in front of us (and continue to pray for height) and just be happy. It's easier said than done and everyone realises this but, as the old saying goes, "It is the darkest before the dawn," or "The rainbow after the storm," et cetera, et cetera, et cetera.

Live life and start loving it.
No point in fighting against a force that is so much more bigger than us, right?
... And exhale.

Til next time,

Much Love,

Siti.

Wow..

Wowww. My last post was in October. It's now June.. so, that's about.. a gazillion years. I think. I'm surprised I still remember my password.

Anyway. What's up ya'll?

I've started reporting. It's been almost six months. Been fun so far.. normal up's, down's and hair pulling as I go "WHAT THE FUCK?!". Ahh, yes. The working life. I'm starting to appreciate my parents more now.

So.. the hot topic this month? Adaler.. And if you don't know then which rock have you been staying under? I'd like to get the address, join you and be oblivious to the rest of the world for a little bit.

I was just reading the new's earlier and apparently a sperm whale was found dead near the BP oil spill. Kesian.. which pervert came up with the name sperm whale, anyway? Like calling your kid Dick for some odd reason. (Sorry if that offended, but it's true.)

Blah. Brain's a little tired so I'm just randoming.

Okay. Papai nowww..

Siti.

It's been two weeks since I've last updated.

In the office at the moment and as per usual, pretty slow here.

So how was your day?

Mine was a little tiring, i guess. Finally got to fix my K on my car license plate. Was long over due..

My mum and me went to the old SCR in Gadong and it turns out, that was our first visit in three months, which is kinda surprising considering that we used to visit the place a few times a month prior to the renovation (that's how we found out. we asked the lady how long the renovation took and she said "tiga bulan"). Can't say this enough: where did the time go?

I feel like life's a little too.. short. It's the whole "so much to do, so little time" kinda theology and it's kinda true, somewhat. I think it's because i spend most of my day bumming around and when I'm not bumming around I'm doing nothing in particular and it leaves me a little unfulfilled. Sad, no?

I got my nose pierced earlier in the week. And no, not really. Didn't hurt that bad. Sakit for a split second saja and then after you get over the initial shock that something pierced you, you become ok again. Then you spend the next three or so days being so very careful especially when blowing your nose.. Mine's almost healed so it's all good. Can go back to the nose digging soonish. It's getting so clogged up there who knows what's awaiting my finger. Bats kali.

Anyway. Yar...

Terah.

Siti

The most beautiful things are the ones that are simple.

I think that most of us today are a little blinded by the material things the world offers us and we become so consumed by the shiny things in the window that we fail to see the dandelion growing on the side walk.

I don't know many people who stop to stare at the flowers; to just engulf the naturalistic beauty that has been bequeathed to us by a Divine power.

It seems like we've almost forgotten the one true satisfaction life has to offer - simplicity

The greatest thing's in life are free.. and this is true..

Nothing else in the world can make you feel the way you do when that certain someone tells you how much they love you or to hear a baby giggle at the silly cat as it is chasing it's tail (i mean, the cat chasing it's own tail.. not the baby chasing the cats tail. Heh).

Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder and again, this is true..

What is beautiful to you is created by you. In another sense, your own opinion is unique to you and no one else can tell you otherwise, because, you know, the other person's opinion is a little absurd. (Kidding.) But you get my gist.

We all have the capability to "rattle stars" and move mountains and inevitably achieve the impossible. You may think what I'm saying now isn't true but think about it..

The impossible, like beauty, is unique with each and everyone. My mum used to say "If someone else can do it, why can't you?" and of course, she was referring to Math. I used to say that Math equations are impossible but in reality I was just too lazy to bother but now that I think about it, now that I have grown-up some what, it wasn't impossible.. I could've if I had taken the time to try .

There was once a time where the greatest minds could only hope to fly. But today, flight has escaped the imagination; and now it is real.

Machines designed to look like birds and hover like bees have become an intricate part of our lives and we can now travel to the stars; we now have the capability to visit other planets and witness other constellations as they evolve and give birth to new stars; we can now gaze at other galaxies and are given the opportunity to explore far beyond our reach and further expand our knowledge on the mysteries that have yet to be discovered and revealed.

To be honest, I just finished reading "The Lost Symbol" by Dan Brown. Kinda explains my gibberish..

Good book. Very insightful.. Has the capability to open one's mind to the almost impossible..

Siti

As a Bruneian, I am truly grateful that we are geographically situated sheltered from the natural devastation's that have rendered our neighbours helpless, powerless and heartbroken.

We, as Bruneians, we need to start appreciating the gift's and the many blessing's that have been bestowed upon us by the Almighty; that we are still protected by his grace; that the worst we have ever received so far are just sightings of tornadoes not so long ago and strong winds that have torn off roofs, toppled trees and cut off electricity (which are subsequently fixed in just a couple of hours/days).

Just like remembering death after life, we need to remember the plight of others so as to remember how good we have it, how blessed we are, how pampered we are and how easy we have it. We need to stop and say, "thank you" and remember that we, no doubt, have it good here.

It is heartwarming to know that millions across the globe have contributed whatever they can to help the families that have suffered in countries like Indonesia that has been hit by earthquakes and in the Philippines that has been inundated by typhoons, flooding and landslides.

As you are sitting comfortably in your chair right now and reading this, please, if you can't spare change or blankets or clothes, please do spare a little prayer to the individuals out there who are sheltering in broken down buildings or in tents huddled with other individuals just like them for warmth.

Please do remember to ask the Almighty to help give them strength, to hold them in His heart, to love them the way He love's us, to protect them and keep them safe..

They are as human as you and I. They need the prayer's of others more than ever..

Please do..

Siti

A's are coming and it isn't so exciting and I'm sure loads out there are feeling the same way too..

So, the blackout is back. Wonder how everyone else is taking it. On a brighter note, we're cutting down on emission and we're saving the planet! Even if it is involuntarily. Good though, No? Don't complain =). Planet Earth has been so good to us we might as well return the favour. Maybe it's karma for those of us who didn't join in on Earth Hour? Possibility.. or maybe there's a conspiracy behind all this. We may never know *queue X-Files theme music.

Chatting with Amal Nabilah at the moment. I miss her bah =(. and she's so kambang i feel like sitting on her. Hahaha.

Anyway..

Take care lots.

Siti

A long over-due Hari Raya to all..

Nothing much to say, really..

Just the same old, "Sabar saja.." as wisely phrased by a very wise person.

Heh..

Much Love,

Siti.